So, since being diagnosed I have been covered under my mother's insurance plan. I have been able to walk into a pharmacy ask for vials of insulin and strips and without any issues walked out with what I asked for only having to pay for the dispensing fee of around $10.00 each time. It wasn't until today that I walked into the Walmart pharmacy, asked for the insulin and strips and was told that I was no longer covered. To my surprise, I was looking back at the clerk thinking, what do I do then? she looked back at me waiting for me to make up my mind on whether or not I was going to pay for the insulin or walk away with nothing.
My first thought, "oh my god, how can I pay for this every month?" my second thought, " I swear I was covered by my mom..." third thought, "why do I have diabetes? this isn't fair?" fourth thought, "I am so getting a treat for all of this frustration." I walked away without the insulin and gave my mom a call asking what I should do. Thankfully she assured me that once I proved I was in school to her insurance company that all would be good. I went back to the counter and coughed up the hundred-and-something-dollar bill that it cost me to save my life for the month.
Honestly, it was incredibly stressful and I couldn't help but get mad that I have to pay so much to stay alive. Why are diabetics having to pay so much for insulin? Why are we having to worry about these kinds of things? I began to think more about the desperate cries on Facebook chat groups of people searching for insulin, hoping their cheques come in so they can pay for their insulin... I felt incredibly mad.
Thankfully, I will be covered until I am 26 (and still in school) by my mom's plan and then it is time to look for a job or friend (a.k.a husband) with benefits! It really makes you think how fragile the life of a diabetic can be. How scary of a thought it is to be without insulin. A thought many of us do not want to even think about.